y am i so worried? so sad! despite knowing she need hlp! despite advicing her so much! i guess it was hopeless? or is it she was stubborn! telling her the right choice, a choice that would not harm her! yet she chose a path, a path where the road is so tough!
dad, i reali duno y, despite all the effort, it seems so futile! was i too helpful?
i juz dont wish to see someone i cherish, suffer i guess!
i do not want it to repeat again!
perhaps my past was a dark one!
she has nv experience it before!
our parents are totally different! different background n parents! yet our habits are the same! i knw her alot better thn myself! becuz she seems like a mirror image! one that lives in such comfort! alot better thn me!
her habits are exactly the same! but the way she studies n think is so stupid! the wrong way! haiz!
whn i offer the right path, y do i end up being dissapointed?
i wish i would know!
maybe saint jerome knws! or perhaps jehova will know!

y am i so kind yet evil too! cnt i be evil n heartless? haiz
thn perhaps i would nt have to worry! perhaps i could juz throw her at a corner n see her die!
never would have to see her cry!
nanyang, what a joke! haiz
despite me saying pj so many times! if she were to go jj! she wun make it!
...! haiz! a intention filled with the purest feelings i had! yet it was broken juz like that! guess my heart cnt break down further anymore!
onli tears will flow down!
laughing at her foolishness, yet deep down, it hurts! as though i wana cry!

i am the fool, not her! a fool who never learns! T.T
juz cnt bear to see her cry! even whn ms lim n mr lim say let her be, she need to experience it herself!
...! life is a road i really do not wish to go through!