sianz hate orientation!
stupid ogl! keep on say i am wif xin yi! duh! frens wat! zzzz! thn muz take care of her wat!
zzzzz! thn dance they banned me from being with her! make me dance wif another girl from swiss cottage! her name is gina!
more like gin na! lol! my underhand man! lol

today a glim of light shined! it brought me some hope again! a hope of fun n happiness at pioneer!
my tutor said she maybe appealing to pj! woohoooooo! feel so happy! cnt wait!
wonder if she will enter! only time n fate can tell!

kns ask u dun read still read! cheater!

i met this girl, who was so nice! a really nice person i must say! thought i knw her well! guess maybe nt!
since even neither her parents nor herself knw her well!
a person, nice indeed! however she is a person who needs people help yes she does!
hard working she is! careless she is! but a gd friend definitely!
blur she maybe! yet despite being blur, she is funny!
always laughing n pissing me off i must say!
she is hardworking yet lazy! lazy to think! yet hard working at the same time! willing to chiong she is!
friends she have! plenty to spare!
yet they all are walking a diff path for u to knw!
a koala she is! a tree her dad and her mum is!
both are always there for her! that i do not have!
independent she is not!
rich she is!
having so many things of her own she does!

yet a mind of her own she does not! haiz! help her i have! sacrifice much i did!
but the outcome was nt what i expected! hope i did not i help her i do!
since helping and not helping would not matter! it does not!

regret i do! i guess it is the consequence i have to bear! since it is the choice i made!

her dad always make her decision he does! saying that he rather want her go poly thn she studying so hard! yet she wan to study! her mum too say so! i wonder!

wonder why my mum always ask me to study n suffer now! thn ltr!
a brother we 2 have! yet a world of total opposite! i knw what she needs! yet a path we walk so differently!
wonder whn will the paths meet again! only time will tell!

sianz duno whether to go to sec 4 outing! haiz! dun wan go leh!
this year is a brand new year! goin to jc, meeting new friends n losing so many friends! haiz! cnt bear to part with them! xin yi, qian ting, bo wei, ye xun, yong hong! haiz! sianz!

this year entering jc! while valerie n floris is having their A lvl lol! hahaha!
nxt year my turn! seems so fast! haiz!

after Os is A! after A is another hell! haiz!
troublesome!

went to class chalet!
reached there, we went into the chalet!
me n terence wanted to put our bags down before we went to bike!
thn qian ting came down n saw me!
she was so shocked! came asking eh u gt come arh?
as if she is so happy to see me like tat! or is it me thinking too much!
thn we went to rent the bike! me n terence went riding for 2 hours! so shiok! 2 chiongster! hahaha
thn went back chalet n play poker n sit on stairs!
qian tin, me n terence kept cheating cuz xin yi was watching show!
1st it started out nicely! thn ltr cuz wana hlp qian ting! so i hlp her cheated! thn she kept cheating! so lol! so noti! hahaha

at nite i went out wif qian ting n other ppl to walk!
back, went to have breakfast about 2.30 lol!
i kept forcing jia shun to drink milo!
as for qian ting! she so persistant! keep on dun wan!
zzzz! so bu shang lian!

thn ltr play poker!
tat qian ting wan to cheat again!
zzzz
kind of bored of poker! thn we played other card games!
there was this 1 where by u take a card n well try to get the largest! but u cnt see it! u gt to put ur card on ur head! n basically, u can change the card if u dun like it! that qian ting keep on try to scam me! too bad i dun care! so she gt bored of it! thn started coming out wif some stuff like getting clubs win! getting spades win!
but apparently, wdv she say, she dun get! thn i get! thn she keep losing! lose until nt happy! thn throw some card at me cuz i kept laughing at her! hahaha

thn i played mahjong while she slpt! i didn slp at all!
at nite! well bbq, eat cakes! n wanted to take pic wif qian ting! she so persistant! at there say dun wan until so happy! ....! well thn head home n slp arh! shiok! hehehe!
that stupid girl!

get her number oso so troublesome! thn she give me a call so tat my phone gt her number! thn she ask y i nv pick up! waste her money sia! ...
so wierd! no wonder she is wierdo! hahaha

it was always out of the kindest n best intentions to help her! i juz did not want to see her suffer! a person like me, with a diff background yet a similar personaliy suffer!
maybe tat y i juz could nt let her go!
i wonder if my name was zackery, wat would i end up...


i juz hope she wun end up suffering in her coming jc! T.T

nanyang is a gd jc, but it is so far! unless ur panret send u to sch, u will have to spend 45 mins from choa chu kang to go there!
tat sch is gd, vry gd, but the fact that it is so gd, many other scholars are goin there!
u are competing with scholars! i am scared too! because if u do not do well, you might not be able to promote to jc 2! thn u will have to waste 1 more year of studying!

for a pig, to go there! whn she at kranji already nid help is needless to say a route to death! someone with such nice marks, wanting to compete with the pros, is a great dream!

nanyang jc, is vry competitive!
a place for muggers n pros!
yiting wana go there cuz she studies! .... haiz! i am tired of giving anymore advice! so tired!
ur marks WIN me n u wan go nanyang! pro lor! pro lor!
after all pigs are pro n can fly

sianz so many ppl wan go nanyang... even i oso dun dare put, afraid tat i cnt go in! yet so many ppl wan try to put!
haiz! sianz!
lost my mood to watch anime le! T.T

life is a road i dun wana keep going,

today's diary, a peaceful day after all no one come n irritate me!
abit sad, abit happy, at nite, very sad!
morning, breakfast lol
thn facebook gt new msg,
yishan msged me said she was goin jjc, sianz! i was trying to psyco her to go pj, but fail, she say there gt bubble tea shop... lol!
terence lim goin sajc, st andrew jc in case u do not knw lol i tried to psyco him, but fail la! that asshole!
but i doubt anyone read my blog lol

thn my tutor, idk, she wan go ngee ann poly, hope she cnt go in thn go pj! pj ftw!!!!

thn lunch, went out to buy! we play a game, terence lim was a asshole! trying to bully me! i playing so guai, he come make things difficult for me!
it is a chinese game whr by the person gt to make use of the ending word to form a new word!


at nite it rain, n reminded me of the time whn! the time whn it was chem paper, i waited for someone for 2hrs, from a day with no rain till it rain! rained so heavily! n yet i waited for her! she told me she nid hlp for physics, n so i waited, only to knw that my help was not needed!
and i waited like a idiot for 2 hrs, i was a fool!
walked back home in the rain!
...
guess i was reali a idiot huh? lol

i am irritating... a fool... a idiot...


i now juz wish my tutor will really go pj, i sec 4 sacrificed her just to help someone... didnt get to peh tutor! i really regret!
now i just hope i can spend time with her! n not regret it!
for fuck sake did i went to help 'her'!

T.T
thought she needed help, a sincere look, someone who wanted to go jc, who needed help, who seems so helpless!
someone who dare not get help,
...


i am sorry tutor

y am i so worried? so sad! despite knowing she need hlp! despite advicing her so much! i guess it was hopeless? or is it she was stubborn! telling her the right choice, a choice that would not harm her! yet she chose a path, a path where the road is so tough!
dad, i reali duno y, despite all the effort, it seems so futile! was i too helpful?
i juz dont wish to see someone i cherish, suffer i guess!
i do not want it to repeat again!
perhaps my past was a dark one!
she has nv experience it before!
our parents are totally different! different background n parents! yet our habits are the same! i knw her alot better thn myself! becuz she seems like a mirror image! one that lives in such comfort! alot better thn me!
her habits are exactly the same! but the way she studies n think is so stupid! the wrong way! haiz!
whn i offer the right path, y do i end up being dissapointed?
i wish i would know!
maybe saint jerome knws! or perhaps jehova will know!

y am i so kind yet evil too! cnt i be evil n heartless? haiz
thn perhaps i would nt have to worry! perhaps i could juz throw her at a corner n see her die!
never would have to see her cry!
nanyang, what a joke! haiz
despite me saying pj so many times! if she were to go jj! she wun make it!
...! haiz! a intention filled with the purest feelings i had! yet it was broken juz like that! guess my heart cnt break down further anymore!
onli tears will flow down!
laughing at her foolishness, yet deep down, it hurts! as though i wana cry!

i am the fool, not her! a fool who never learns! T.T
juz cnt bear to see her cry! even whn ms lim n mr lim say let her be, she need to experience it herself!
...! life is a road i really do not wish to go through!

the year 2009,
a vry great year! a year, filled with joy and tears! a year filled with regrets n cheers!
a year that i learned a whole lot of things! a year that i will never forget!

in the year 2009, i learn knowledge from textbooks! and knowledge that could never be found in textbooks!

i had alot of fun in the class, with friends! i made very good buddies, a pity i had to part with them that is!
they went to poly while i chose a road of jcs!

the year 2009, i regret, well i do not know if i regreted or nt! maybe nt i guess! since it is a joy to serve n help! the word thank you from her was a very nice reward! really nice!
though i feel sad! but i am glad i could be of a help, at elast i do not have to see her going to a sch that she does not like! i am glad i am of a service to her!
really glad! dissapointed i must agree to it! but i am very please already i guess!
hope whn she go to the sch of hers, she can do well! n that ppl will help her too! be it me or others!


my tutor, well she said she most probably would be entering poly! well, gona miss her! i guess i can only wish her the best in everything she do!
my best tutor indeed!
one that i am gna be sad to part with!


my mum, idk what sch she entering! haiz! my dad, haiz too! another one that cnt decide! guess thats why they are couple! but i think my dad will go pioneer! hahaha!
i am gna psyco her! MUAHAHAHAHA lol!


this year was reali fun! zi yin is goin to other sch, i wonder who will go pj thn! hope my neighbour will! thn at least i will ahve a study partner! n perhaps we can both do well! yeah ^^ lol!



today, a call came! someone was finding my dad! lol! as in papa! arh god dad la! lol
my dad went to sajc open house!...
tat person was like! can i speak to kah foong ...! i am like she is nt here! lame! can call wrong number! so smart sia tat person! thn wan go nanyang! i so jealous! i cnt go nanyang la! haiz!
jealous sia!
lol!

hehehe i think i am gna get scolded by my dad if she see this! so lalalala! pretend u nv lor! so simple! hahaha!


i am so kid! lol! haiz! sianz! she really needs help! forever needs ppl hlp! her parent, n friends! juz cnt do things on her own! haiz! i am comfirm correct! haiz! she goin nanyang!
it is either her parent idea, or her friend ask her to go! if nt means she is god damn genious! too smart already! to wan to go nanyang! 1st choice!



hehehe! me n my friend were laughing for an hour straight! lol! lalalalala!

i wonder what choice my friends make! haiz! so curious!

Labels: hehehe

today! life was great! i learn alot of new things!
i learn to play dota! lol!
learn to guai lan! learn alot of new chinese words!
i learn tat with 14 points, u can go nanyang! ( kind of a inside joke )
learn that there are alot of ppl out there who is vry hlpful!
n learn that i am still lost n stuck about my life!
n that i still duno alot of things!

but i laugh alot today! ate mac today! woohoooooooooo!
lol! 13 points go nanyang! i damn noob! i cnt! haiz! sianz! regret arhhhhhhhhhh
lol!
now thinking whether to take econs or to take general studies in chinese!

well monday is the big day! i am so scared! i wonder if i can make it into pioneer junior college! T.T
so darn scared!

i wana go in n play n enjoy!

my dad oso wana go pj!
terence lee too!
hmmmm n idk who else le! lol!

i hope the bitch dun go! hahaha! haiz! monday is coming soon! i am already having sleepless nights now! haiz!

why do people always regret when it is like too late? feeling very sad! i wish i could amend my sec 3 life! reali! my sec 3 life was the worst! i made many mistakes! pang seh someone! perhaps from that moment everything change! i wonder how to change it back!

whn i pang seh that very person! we 2 seems to walk on a somewhat similar path! but a sad one i must say! maybe not sad to that person, but sad to me!

that person was caring to me during sec 4! but i guess i was blind! i wonder! how can i repay it back! done so many bad things! it seems almost impossible to repay back! to even make you smile again!

Labels: my regret for my secondary life

wakakakaka! tmr, people start sch loh, i oso wan go sch sia! sianz! so sianz! so jealous sia! bohoooooooooooooooooooooooooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooohooooooooooooooooooo! boring!

reached singapore like 1.30!
thn i went home n slept till 9.30!
whn gt phone call! terenceS call me! oh today gt primary sch outing! haiz! sianz!
went there n was like zzzzzzzz!
my body is aching from all the walk i gt from hong kong la!
thn we went to east coast park to ride bycicle!
thn we went to mac to eat! lol!
thn went to bowling! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz boring! cuz i was like wantin to go home!
hahaha!
thn i have to go to my grandma house too! zzzzzzzz! so i was nt enjoying at all!
stupid lim la! drag me go! curses!

thn at 4.30! i gtg le! se ern too had to go home! so we left together! me n mummy!
she sux! duno how to go out de! i had to be the bodyguard! lol! walk so slow too! some mother! lol! hahaha! jk jk!
if scold somemore... i can slp inside toilet le! lol
thn escort mummy go choa chu kang! had to rush cuz she nid to reach home by 6! so i was like hurry, ltr u gna scold! lol
thn well luckily she nv get scold! thn i went to my grandma house!
the rest of the ppl, they played until vry late! they went to pool, they had dinner!
lol!
then chuan ping nxt day was like msging me! eh whr u go! i was like! oh u notice me ar! lol!
hahaha!
thn told her i go home lor! lol! joke! hahaha!

oh well peeps! happy new year to u all!